|| But God ||

Oh how I love those two words.
A while ago I remember reading those two words in Psalms in my devotions and I literally stopped reading and closed my Bible and just had a "wow" moment. But God. I made a note back in September that said this:

{But God}
I prayed for what I wanted-but God knew what I needed.
I am unworthy-but God gives more grace.
I am unlovable-but God still loves me.
I don't know what to do-but God has a plan for my life.
I am not good-but God is always good.
I can fail-but God never can.
I disappoint-but God is always faithful.

Five months later I could add so many more "but God" statements to that list. Tonight Today, I sit here with my heart so so full. Personally, something I struggle with is being presently content. I place my focus on everything I don't have and forget to enjoy and cherish what's right in front of me. No, I don't have everything I want right now---But God. He has given me so much. I may not have everything figured out, but God has given me some pretty wonderful amazing people that I can count on and the friendships I've made during my season of in-between have helped me through so many times when I thought it was time to give up.

We cannot see the big picture, when we complain to God: "I don't have this and my life would be so much better if I just had (insert significant other, job, degree, car, friend, etc. here)" We are basically saying "Hey God, you got it wrong and I know better so give me what I want now please! Thanks." Once again, but God! I think about all the things I wanted- even in September when I wrote that note- and I shudder to think about how my life would be right now if God had given me what I wanted and begged for back then. He knows best. There is never a time when that will not be true.

Take a second and google how many times the phrase "but God" is in the Bible. This week my favorite is Psalm 73:26 My flesh and my heart faileth but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. I am weak-but His strength is perfected in my weakness. Another excellent one, Ephesians 2:4 But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us. A holy God loves unloveable me and not only does He love me in spite of myself- He is merciful! I mess up-but God doesn't give up.  Right now, I'm simply thankful for two little words that made a big difference in my life.